Mama I miss you so much. I thought the pain of losing you would get easier. It’s worse. I honestly can’t cope with the thought of never seeing you again. My heart breaks more with every passing day. I look at the kids and think how much you’re missing, my heart breaks for Elias knowing he’ll only know about his wonderful nanny through us all talking about you and keeping your memory alive. I want you back mum. I need you. I love you. ❤️❤️❤️